Discouraged

Last night was a evening full of dreams and being awake.  This morning was a trip to see my Doctor at the Emergency Department of the Wiarton Hospital.

Have I ever mentioned how much I LOVE my Doctor.  He is very concerned and empathetic, and never makes you feel like you shouldn't be there.  I also never feel I need to rush through what I have to say, or that he doesn't listen to me.  Yes Dr. Diodati has been a good fit for many in the community.

Dr. Diodati is of the opinion it is the Fibromyalgia, and to pace myself more when I do find I have those small pockets of energy, however that is not always possible.  He had ordered more blood work  for me, that he hasn't ordered before, to check out if there is something else showing up that might be causing the chronic pain.  I also asked if he would please check my iron as well.  Monday I will go for the blood work.

My dizziness and unsteadiness has not subsided.  My body has been aching from head to toe always feeling like I have a bad case of the flu for those who might not know what I am feeling that is the best way to describe it.  The fatigue has been getting the best of me.  Yes I am getting beyond discouraged, as one day I might be "ok" then crash for two days.

I started walking again, but that has not be contributing to more energy, or better sleep.  I will try not to give up on that.

The state of my house is driving me crazy as it is not ME ! and its disarray is driving ME further crazy.

I can't stop living, but find myself pushing myself more and more each day to complete the smallest tasks.  It makes it even more difficult too when people look at you and think you look fine and "how could anything be wrong with you", when inside the pain and fatigue are gnawing away your very being.

After the two hours at the hospital, I spent more time downtown while I waited for the prescription for migraine medication from the drug store.  When I got home I did up the Crabby Cabbie invoicing for the Month of April.

I then went out in the back with Rob to check on the Beaver situation, taking along Portia for her first big property adventure.

A little bit of beauty along the way.

Portia did really good on her first time out to the "back 40"!  I was very proud of her.

I even had some cuddle time with her.

This afternoon I slept the day away which makes me so sad when it was such a lovely day.  I long to get my house spotless and my gardens beautiful again ... I have to keep believing it will happen again just give it time.  I need to keep the Faith.

I am still always tired.  I am going to not be too far from my bed this evening, Just North of Wiarton & South of the Checkerboard.